Intensity

pissed.angry.sad.

three types of intense humanly emotions i feel right now is surging through my body in mayhem right now. iono how to feel and iono how to talk. iono how to do anything, i just want to scream! i want to let out all my frustrations on the two people that caused mahh irritation.. buhh i can't, cuz i love them too much.

what do i do at a time like this? usually, the answer is to drink and to do stupid things.. buhh i can't let mahself .. cuz the people who care about me will worry and i don't want to make them worry about me. so i won't do anything.

i'm insanely frustrated right now because humans are so fucked up. human emotions.. human reactions...and human feelings for one another are a bunch of bullshit sometimes. cuz in the end.. we lose each other. we expect too much from another.. that trust.. and that honesty. when you put that trust in someone.. they end up betraying you. and when someone gets fucked over by a close friend.. they are upset.. buhh then they end up doing something shitty to they're own close friend.. because the human mind IS RIDICULOUS!

fuck everything.