Falling

I'm falling deep into my insanity
i can keep on walking with that smile on my face
but just so you know it is not me anymore
i'm tired
i'm tired of people who don't think before they do shit
they can contemplate all they want, but it doesn't even matter
they still did something wrong.

i try to be that friend
but i don't want to anymore
cuz i'm tired of sacrificing myself
i'm weary
and i'm upset

i want to cry
i want to scream
i want to give up

i'm ready to just give up.

fuck everyone .
i'm not in the mood to listen anymore
idgaf

i'm sorry to those that actually do care about me
i love you no matter what
and i won't forget all the sacrifices you have done for me
and all the memories we shared.
buhh sometimes, it's just not enough

i feel like i'm that little girl again
wearing black as others around me dress in white.
i'm alone.. again.

no one can understand me right now...

i really just can't wait to leave sacramento
i hate it here.